the real me

29th May 2012

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i wish boys liked me

28th May 2012

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g0odnightsunrise:

you dont get it, do you? and you never will. all this time i’ve been hoping and for what? for nothing, i guess. i’ll never be enough, or what you want. never.

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28th May 2012

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this was before we got into that fight.

The ample amount of curiosity you supply my naive mind, the unforgivable quantity of joy and happiness you bring. The feeling is like being in a room full of complete strangers speaking a foreign language, leaving you blind with words, but all you want to do is learn that language. The warm sensual vibrations in my body tell me this is just lust, a sexual tension between man and woman. A kind of gravity pulling us together. The rough touch of your hands and your beautiful mouth send chills up my spine. Arrector pili on every inch of my trembling body, making the sensation stronger. The want for you is so immense, the black and white outline soon to be colored with reds and golds. Blue, cold, a color never seen between you and I. your grasp pulls me into a cage with no escape. The bruises, the blood, the desire, I whisper please and you tease me until it is absolutely unbearable. Finally you oblige to what I’ve been longing for since our contact with each other. The utter beauty we create unlike anything else. Soon the jealously takes over my mind. The girl taking over your life is the very girl destroying mine, taking away all the insurmountable chemistry we have is something I will never forgive her for. I never thought blue would result in our relationship. Yet again I blame myself for being wrong. The happiness is lost, my curiosity’s still present but in a new direction. Not towards your body, but your mind, how you think and why you can’t think of me like any other girls. I’ve given up sleep, my heart, my life, and my belief in love for you. I don’t understand why I am so attached, I saw you kiss her. I felt my heart crack, break, and completely shatter at that very second. I froze in my tracks, and stared at the unfortunate, ugly, tart like face that was attached to yours with a thin layer of skin. The nerve endings in your lips must have felt like the ones in my fist…tingling. The feelings you’ve imprinted on me in our time will forever remain. I hope you are always the happiest person, how could you not be when you took every ounce of my happiness away. Selfish, conceded, bitter, and jealous, but I will still be better than that twelve year old you claim to “love”